I woke up this morning absolutely convinced that it was Friday. It was only when I sat at my computer and noticed that I'd logged out of my professional email account that I remembered... Oh yes, it's Saturday.
It's been that kind of week. A long, busy, painful week that saw my world shaken to its very foundations not once, but twice.
Fortunately, one occurrence turned out to have been a "slight misunderstanding", caused by premature and misdirected criticism of one of my translations. Once the situation had been cleared up, the client was "sorry" for the "false alarm" raised by the reviewer, whose comments had nothing to do with the quality of the translation work and everything to do with the copywriting of the original document... So all's well that ends well and everybody's happy, right? I'll just have to forget about the chasm that opened under my feet as it was implied that I utterly suck at the only thing I have even the smallest ability to do.
The other, however... Oh, it breaks my heart all over again just to write about it here... It's a complex situation, but it can be summed up like this: Rebus has begun to display sudden and unprovoked aggressive behaviour towards me.
If you've been reading this blog or its previous incarnations for a little while, you know Rebus; he's a big lovebug. Although he has had almost daily episodes of unexplained bizarre behaviour ever since I adopted him over 6 years ago, that has never been aimed at me or anyone else — but this is entirely different.
I've replayed each incident over and over in my mind. I've discussed them at length with Rebus' veterinarian and two vet techs. He's undergone a thorough physical examination. Nothing. At the moment, there are more questions than answers, more doubts than certainties, and more apprehensions than reassurances.
Right now I'm waiting on the results of a consultation between Rebus' veterinarian and a feline behaviour specialist. In the meantime, all I can do is avoid putting myself in a situation where I may get hurt while keeping things as normal as possible, and find a way to deal with the shock, confusion, frustration, disappointment, fear, guilt, sadness, and self-doubt.